Tango in a Hurricane

So as the old saying goes “When it rains it pours”.  Although I try not to be a negative person it has been a rough few weeks.  I’m sorry that this is so long, but like the Tango our lives have been somewhat complicated lately

With Taygen being diagnosed with having infantile spasms we began a treatment with the highest hopes of never seeing another spasms.  All looked good for the first week where the treatment showed promise and the spasms occurred less regularly.  Through the second week the spasms, although less intense, were happening more frequently.  After a visit to her neurologist we tried upping the dose of the medication for a few days and still the spasms occurred.  We are now in the process of weaning her off this one medication and then we will begin a new medication, which has more long-term side effects.  The new medication that the neurologist is recommending could cause long term effect to her vision, which is already impaired due to the brain abnormalities but we would rather deal with visual impairment then the damage and developmental regression that the seizures could cause.

Last Monday we traveled to Roswell for my follow-up check for Lymphoma.  I was scheduled for a CT Scan, a visit with my Oncologist, a visit with my Radiation Doctor and a visit with the High Risk Breast Cancer Clinic for my heightened risk of Breast cancer from the Radiation.  I was also due to see Dermatology but they initially were unable to get me in until a few weeks later- which I had no intentions of traveling 5 hours just to see Dermatology (Again at higher risk of skin cancer from Radiation- along with my super light skin tone and Red hair/Blue eyes).  I was rescheduled to see them in November when my next follow-up appointment would be.

Taygen Has been super fussy- a side effect of the medication she is on, so Jesse stayed in the Hotel with her while I went to my appointments alone.  I was comfortable as I had been through these appointments numerous times before and confident that all was well. 

Roswell is a beautiful Hospital- They often having someone playing piano or singing in the main lobby its bright and they have numerous cheerful volunteers wandering around offering snacks, candy or activities to patients and their families.  Before heading to my CT Scan appointment I had to stop by phlebotomy to have some blood drawn.  There are 4-5 phlebotomist  in a room where they all talk between each other and the patients talking about anything from recent news, funny jokes or anything to get your mind off of being poked.  I like that they even try to match your outfit with a colorful bandage or warrior wrap as I like to think of them. 

Getting my CT Scan done was mostly uneventful- Drank contast mixture, IV placed, Scan completed- IV taken out- another warrior wrap on my arm then it was off to see my Oncologist.

While being called from the waiting room an elder lady came up to the nurse that was bringing me back and told her some amazing news- She was just given the all clear- She was in remission.  She then hugged the nurse.  When the nurse brought me into the exam room she started crying.  It was so heartfelt to witness this and it brought me back to 4 years prior when I got the most fantastic news of being in remission.  The nurse dried her tears and told me that the doctor would be in shortly. 

It felt like forever sitting there waiting for the Doctor and when he finally came in it wasn’t his typical “Hello Ms. Clark, How are you doing, Everything looks good and we will see you in 6 months.” Before he scoots quickly out the door to move on to save another cancer patients lives.  This time was different.  He started asking me if I had been sick or had a cough- before answering I asked “Why, are my lymph nodes enlarged?” which is what they look for with lymphoma but could also just mean an infection or illness.  He quickly responded “No, No, No.”  He must have seen how worried I was.  But he did say that I have a few spots on my lungs, which it is unlikely for Lymphoma to travel to the Lungs and it is more likely an infection or inflammation.  He gave me an antibiotic with hope of clearing any infections and planned another CT scan in 6 weeks to see if they are gone- If not we may need to have a biopsy to test.  I showed him a spot on my hand, which has been extremely dry, and he scheduled to have me see dermatology that day to make sure it is nothing that could be infected.

After leaving the Oncology clinic I went to visit my Radiation doctor- One of my favorites.  This Doctor was a resident 4 years ago when I was getting my radiation treatments.  She has stuck with me through it all and has been my go-to resource for everything.  After the Doctor who was in charge of my radiation treatments 4 years ago left she took over my case.  She always makes me feel better and takes time to answer everything question I have.  She looked over my CT scan and decided to schedule a PET Scan in 6 weeks as well, just to be sure everything is ok.  Then it was off to Dermatology to have them look at my hand.

While at the Dermatology clinic I asked if there was any chance I could have them do the exam which was scheduled for November now instead, since I was suppose to have it done in May.  At first she said that they didn’t have time but then a few minutes later she returned and said that they could since I was already there.  While doing an exam she found a spot on my upper back which I have had for as long as I can remember but had gotten slightly larger over time.  She stated that she didn’t really think it was anything to be concerned about but wanted to biopsy it anyways and mentioned results from the biopsy usually take up to a week to come back. 

I received a phone call on Wednesday, 2 days after my appointment, it was the doctor from the dermatology clinic – She said that it was really good that they did the exam and biopsy because I had an early stage of melanoma.  I will have to return to Roswell this week to have another procedure done where they will remove more cells – large enough to make sure they get all the abnormal cells.  Luckily it was caught early enough where they are not concerned with it spreading to the lymph nodes but I will be monitored more closely in the future.

I have crazy mixed emotions over everything that has been going on.  Yes, it is a lot while working full time and remodeling a house- which is getting close to being done. (Thanks to all our amazing family for helping!) But I am extremely thankful everything has been caught early and hopefully controlled early before spreading to become a larger problem.  I have learned to never ask what else could go wrong- as I really don’t want to know the answer.

So with the saying “when it rains it pours” I guess I will just have to get a really cool inflatable raft, with a glass of wine (full of cancer fighting antioxidants) and go floating!